Jetsetter Lover

Im trying to understand the meaning. Im trying to get why is it so. Getting to know more need more time. Slowly im beginning to understand or i may be wrong… here is it

In the love of my passion to travel, read and music, now i have more exposure to go more places. I travel almost every month. Until some people ask me, where do i work, what do i do that can allow me to travel so much. Not so much for me but for some who knows my condition will be very curious on how do i manage my kids and the travel arrangement esp on the budget.

I smile... and i am making the same question to me. How did i manage in between the tightness, why do i need to go, when is the best time, where should i go, who do i go with, what do i find at certain place. All this question has got pros and cons. Especially a person like me. Huge Q&A needs to be solved. Thank god i do manage so far. I have been compressing the urge, the needs of getting away from my nest when i was still married, when my kids are still small and now it all falls in just nice for me to have some breath out of my current place.

It doesnt have to be faraway, it doesnt have to be expensive, it has to be with the right person, right company, right purpose and right budget at current situation. How???? God always answer that for me as faith is always there with him whenever i had question and needs to fulfill. He is my best problem solver to any problem i have. HE is my best friend. As long as i believe HE will be there for me yes indeed HE proved me alright.

And that confirm everytime i plan my time to get away. HE take care of my family, my finance and also my wellbeing. THANK GOD FOR I HAVE YOU.

It goes along with the kind of music i love. It has to be with strong instrument rythm and tempo to make me liking certain song. Sax, piano and violin always leave me deep emotions when its played. I can drift my mind far and away.

I dont mind any song as long as it has strong elements of the instrument along. Yeah i can enjoy Gun N Roses, Beethoven, Pop Rock, Ballad, anything.

During younger years i like novels so much, n later more to family kind of stuff but now more on information that treasured along the depth of knowledge gathered. Fond of languages but no chance to learn except some chinese along the teens years.

Jettsetting my life now to something simple and easy has made me let loose lots of heaving things that used to be think and ponder. Perhaps it is because my kids are bit independence in doing most of the things they want and i gave them choice to do of course with guidance. I know its not easy to handle kids nowadays but if i hold them to tight i am scared they will find a way to get it done in another way.

Jetsetter lover??? Am i ??? Can i get a definition here or anywhere. Pls do anyone help me. Surely i cant do it when im attached. Now i began to wonder, is that a reason why i never think to get attached seriously to anyone even there is chance which come by.

Whenever someone is serious i become panic, whenever someone is ready I realize I have not. Would my partner let me explore the things i wanted to, would he let me go just anywhere i wanted to go, would he trust me that i am capable of doing it at my own pace the way i wanted it to be.

My dad thought me the sense of independency since i was small. Left alone without knowing nuts about certain things n i have to find out my own how to manage and solve it. At first i feel very bad, hurt and sad about it. I become temperamental, sulky and rebellious but then years after years of gathering the hard times, i began to earn the sweetness of being independent, being patience to find ways, being warm to ask, being friendly to be able to get help. And all those pays in giving me confidence in life to embark the difficulties

Nothing seems to be impossible if i give myself time to sit down and open my mind wider to Q&A, pro and cons to everything that needs to do. Sunshine would appear with a broad smile.

Well life is sweet. The more i find out about all this, the more i love myself and for those who would love to share life with me would you be able to have this passion along with me or let me venture it once awhile on my own. Would you not be jealous for the love i have for nature in a great way of exploring it??

I wish in 3 years time i would be able to find someone i could walk with to the beach n enjoy the sounds of current composing the melodious rhythm life drama, feel the breeze slapping my face as i scroll along the white sands, feel the earth opening the horizon to a great sunrise or sunset hand in hand reading what kind of music my heart playing while i envelope myself with the love of nature gives me.

Letting the nature to love me would give me great sense of joy to embark new life again and again.