Learning, Digesting and Reflecting

I was experimenting a different lane when someone from Facebook approach me into a relationship and wanted to make me up into  what i had been ignoring.

Man come and go as they wanted.  Particularly i was only looking into what my children needs and not mine at all.  Now after having my own time talking to HIM, he had shown me some path, some ways, some reasoning why i should be accepting a person into my life.

Yes, I have been with Wonderful for so long but too long to made me thinking is he really into my life or i was just thinking abt it alone. Since i ever ask in my prayer HE send me few men.  Not single men but marrieds...

I am not sure why but i am giving a way.  Why?  I am sure HE has reason why he sent me this 3 guys ir rn my life for a purpose.  Let them show me or prove me that they were sent by HIM for a good reason.

I have been rejecting one for coming and ask me things bluntly.  I wanted to smile, laugh at it but i understand everyone has their own uniqueness.

And someone who has been wooing for long time has a chance to date me for Iftar yesterday.  It was sweet, romantic place for a right moment.  But again what was he wanted from me.  Silentness enveloping the evening perhaps he was hoping for me to understand it all.  Perhaps i do and i am just ignoring.  He can be so gentle, so romantic, so everything that i want but he is still a married man.  Although i wanted to have everything under the moon and the stars from him but i am yet to open up my mouth coz he is a married man. Even i know he is capable but i dnt think he wants it becos what he wants is not what i want.

And the other one thinks I was quiet becos i already have someone.  True i have Wonderful in my heart, but im not sure he wanted me to b his Princess.  In my situation i am needing someone to lift up my burden in many ways.  But i cant find a way how to say it out. Instead i listen to people what to say.


Dear blog, i wanted to say more but let me have some digestion to the situation and pen it down as and when.  Let me judge my situation and let me pour out soon.

I love you ALLAH simple bcos u hear me....

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