Passion and Desire

It has been a long time since i last update.  No i have not lost my passion to write, it just because i have not been swimming into my deep thoughts.

I have focused on my children, my life and the progress has been taking in place.  I am just confused about myself.  About certain things turns out but i had never have a chance to think it over.

I just passed it out n carry on on life.  The colourful paint i draw had taken place just the way i wanted but i am just lost in me.  In search of my soul i found my creator but yet i am still had the emptiness.

Had not someone love me dearly?  Yes but did i love just the way he is?  I dont know.  I have not thought about it.  Why?  Because i dont know.  I have HIM and i will care less about him who have shown me his love, his passion, his feelings.

To me it is not as enough as i wanted...  Its  a strange feeling because my focus is more on HIM.  I have not find the lights just as yet.  Or have i allow him to ... no, no i think i was just feeling insecure and think he is not serious enough.

Till then it stays just the way it is now.

Drive my passion, it will lead to desire, purely it come from the soul.

24 June 15
1.23am