Paint ME colour

Paint me colourful not just with your colours but all the colours that you can mix and matched.  Dont change my colour today coz it may spoil the mood of the owner.

Why just you leave it be.  You come to me becos u like me and not becoz i make u to like me.

When the journey goes on

When everything become monotonous n less exciting I began to search for something different again.  Is it true I am being hard headed refusing to listen.  I hate people to control me. I hate people nagging me what to do...

Yes today not just today 1thefool tried talking through to me in his hardway, n now Dani is telling me to reformat everything from my FB account to the rest of my life concentrating in focusing to my wbusiness.  I was listening but i wasnt enjoying.

Moulding me would be good?  Or perhaps he was being fair enough  teaching me n being me I only willing to listen to the fun part.  Damn how do i get this straight

Learning, Digesting and Reflecting

I was experimenting a different lane when someone from Facebook approach me into a relationship and wanted to make me up into  what i had been ignoring.

Man come and go as they wanted.  Particularly i was only looking into what my children needs and not mine at all.  Now after having my own time talking to HIM, he had shown me some path, some ways, some reasoning why i should be accepting a person into my life.

Yes, I have been with Wonderful for so long but too long to made me thinking is he really into my life or i was just thinking abt it alone. Since i ever ask in my prayer HE send me few men.  Not single men but marrieds...

I am not sure why but i am giving a way.  Why?  I am sure HE has reason why he sent me this 3 guys ir rn my life for a purpose.  Let them show me or prove me that they were sent by HIM for a good reason.

I have been rejecting one for coming and ask me things bluntly.  I wanted to smile, laugh at it but i understand everyone has their own uniqueness.

And someone who has been wooing for long time has a chance to date me for Iftar yesterday.  It was sweet, romantic place for a right moment.  But again what was he wanted from me.  Silentness enveloping the evening perhaps he was hoping for me to understand it all.  Perhaps i do and i am just ignoring.  He can be so gentle, so romantic, so everything that i want but he is still a married man.  Although i wanted to have everything under the moon and the stars from him but i am yet to open up my mouth coz he is a married man. Even i know he is capable but i dnt think he wants it becos what he wants is not what i want.

And the other one thinks I was quiet becos i already have someone.  True i have Wonderful in my heart, but im not sure he wanted me to b his Princess.  In my situation i am needing someone to lift up my burden in many ways.  But i cant find a way how to say it out. Instead i listen to people what to say.


Dear blog, i wanted to say more but let me have some digestion to the situation and pen it down as and when.  Let me judge my situation and let me pour out soon.

I love you ALLAH simple bcos u hear me....

1228am

My Beautiful Precious Moment

PRECIOUS MOMENT
Current mood: contemplative

While sitting in the car in the midst of the legendary town called Tg Bidara. I can still listen to the sound of waves coming to the shore.  With the breeze of wind whispering the sound of nature..

I lay back while watching the current and let the wind plays with my hair,  I drift my mind away taking me to away that soothe and calming my heart from worries and problems..

Sometimes its nice to remember good things happens to us way back when we are young, teens, adults, recently, yesterday and probably just happens..

While we could leave the past unwanted and keep those sweet in the box of our memory..

Where all the lovely words, nice quotes, good humor and jokes can be shared amongst friends, family, love ones and probably your kids or spouse..

The glistening looks of the sea, with waves waving coming n leaving.  The crystal sands sparkling and gleaming as the sun shining.  As far as my eyes can reach the horizon and take my mind away further from current situation..

As I close my eyes, an image appear.  An image of situation that sparks my heart with sense of belonging and loving.

As I set my lips on the head.  I could feel the love is flowing.  Down to the forehead while now he has already close his eyes to feel it.  Now to both eyes where he can visual me.  And the lips is now set on both cheek going towards the nose.  Tipping on the tip of it and slowly taking it down to the chin.  By then im looking at the face that I wish to showered with all the tiny kisses all over.  The temptation to maneuver the soft wet lips is now planted slowly to meet the surface. 

Lightly it landed on his.  Slowly letting the taste of it lingering on top of mine.  While the tongue now aching to taste the surface and slowly parting the other for a response.  Slowly it opens up and let loose to the feel.  By this moment im lifted to a level where I cant describe who am I, where I am, what I am and when can I stop.  Nerve is sensing, and tense is building sending all the feels to my whole body.  Its raging with fire, intensifying feelings that I cant remember when was last time..

The lips and tongue is still doing the fighting, the tasting and luring the nerve to be sent all over and burning with wilderness desire..

While the hand trailing behind me and tickling.  The lips stops for a while to catch a glimpse on the look of yours.. theres a smile… A sweet smile that I always amused to see…

While heart is pumping faster, the hot feelings is rushed to my cheek and make it rosy…and the seductive eyes never failed to send the next message of raging needs..

And the lips meet again while the hand roaming and leisurely teasing all over.  Theres is so many sensitive parts hits when all my fighting hands become weaker and slower and at last laid back touching you in return to approve the action…

Slowly I give in where my tensed body become soft letting all the touch and the lips to taste..

While im growling the fingers is crawling, my mind is pacing, will I let this moment continue or stop..

It never stops just on my lips it goes on to my neck where all my reality gone and fantasies replaced immediately when its trailed down the nape of my neck and the back of my head.. while the hand is playing with my hair and all my goose bumps stands to tell me that im flying high now…

No, I don’t want you to stop neither letting you to go.. I want to feel you if even for the very last moment.  Even if i didn’t come for this but since you’ve touch the button and trigger all the sense and nerve.. Do take me higher.  Far from reality, further in my fantasy and reach my heaven and lay me there slowly with the intensity…

I can feel your slow and careful thrusting which was pain in the beginning and better as it goes.. A thrust after thrust which is felt all over not wanting it to stop and heightened as you were coming..

It stop and the eyes is staring deep with meaning.. A minute of passion past.. Another moment of gazing vast… A look was not just a look but taking it again in a slow pace one after another and asking for something in return.. The racing pace taking to the final destination and takes me in and goes limp on you.. but to my surprise no it was not final but yes another race is taking place after.  Yes I was shocked but I give in again with a quizzical look that fades off when it takes place...

Laying off on it where all the nerve are very sensitive now..

That was the best moment of my life where all the passion and desire meets the heavenly destination.. I could feel the heat, the beating heart pumping, the rosy cheek blushing, the weakened knee aching..

I could still remember the soft moans, the heart beating, the sweet sweat felt and the hot blood rushing…

All I can say to you..

I am lost in the act of love, in my own lusty fire, my own mystifying desire…No one can be there since the day you made it… 

If I want to feel it again I will then take my fantasies to the beach and let the nature take me off from the ground back to the heavenly earth made by you in my fantasy land…

Lets being passionate again

My emotions is edgy these days.  I wasn't able to handle feelings to specifically being loved by a  man. Undeniably I was being lonely at times especially having teens kids who find time on their own are more precious than finding time to be with me.

Besides  serving my customers, finding new acquaintances and new business partner, I cant lie that I am lonely.  My soul is searching for something.  I prayed for someone to come and god given me the chance but unfortunately again i was tested.

Sigh.... i wanted someone but not owned by somebody.  I wanted loved but not shared by someone else.  I have to ask again n again but i failed to know the reason.  I leave it on.

I challenged my fear and meet him one day.  I can tell that if i want the relationship i can make it happen but then just to make me feel satisfied digging some infos was im good at.  I was stuck on the verge again.  To accept or not to accept.

I was enjoying everything until i know the truth.  Heated arguments follows.  And my flaws emerged.  I cant just pretend being someone pretty n beautiful but yet to be bold to know the truth. Hate to admit yes i do like him, wanted him very much.  Oh yeah i do, but....

God please take some of my worries away and please grant me the wish i wanted.  Let me be loved, let me be happy, let me be cuddled, let me be safe in the hands of a man called lover.  With the right path and ways of course with your blessings.

Yes i want it. Prove me im wrong this time.

New Me Again???

Looks like I have gotten myself back after years of being in the bzness managing life.  Can't deny my passion of writing life play.

Routes after routes, path after path the journey has been beautiful yet interesting not to forget some mishaps here and there.

After a month being freelancer and full time Mary Kay Beauty Consultants I have painted the road colourful with so many acquaintances, new thrilling strategy and promoting.

I cant deny the hicups, the sadness and the cloud nine feelings.  All are accepted in the name of god for giving me beautiful countless testament for me to be grateful and blessed with.

Thanks  Allah for your guidance and love.  I will never giving up asking you for more love and guide.

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