Aku Hanya Wanita Biasa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpvA3R9UwWw

I have third parfum from him last round. People said they wont be lingering long with you if he gave u parfum.

Thinking of what had happen to me previously i am thinking again, it doesnt take long for him to leave me if he find i am not suitable for him. But he is still around me. Still, to date.

It scare me to think deeper. I feel safe, secure, comfortable and so full of loved when i am with him the only thing that make me uncomfortable is his working mode has always carried him away n i am feeling being a punching bag.

It hurts, yes not once, not twice but few times already but still I am here n he is there.

"I will be there for a very long time for you..." he repeat that again.

Not once but few times when we fight??? Is it a fight??? No it is not a fight. I am not sure what it is.

Yes right now u are not famous yet, right now they arent any girls residing in ur mind, lingering in ur soul, hopping in ur eyes. But when the times comes, who i am to you.

"One day i will be very pious"...
"what stoping you now?"... i contest that question
"because i cant marry you"...

I heard that, or do i hear it wrongly. I never asked further and hoping i hear it wrongly.
There is many issue arise there. His mother, his age, his destiny, his life... i doubt he will waste his beautiful life for a mother like me. I challenge that idea, but i am not challenging god if it was written for me. I was just scared... thats what im feeling. Dont want to be carried away.

"We never shared our dreams", ive been reminded. Hence i should know and always remember, i am there for a Reason, may be on Season for a Lifetime. And with that i cant question anything which is not belonging to me. It will come n go just like the rest, who claimed the same.

I have feel the hurt, i have feel the pain and im allowing it again so is that the changes i wanted in life???

aku ini Wanita Biasa
Bisa Sakit Luka Karena Cinta
Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa
Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga
Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang
Kadang ku Rapuh
Lemah Liar Merana
Chorus1
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang
Dosakan Cinta Kekasih
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang Dosakan Cinta
Kekasih Hatiku Kekasih Hatiku
Maafkan Akuaku Wanita Biasa
Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa
Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga
Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang
Kadang ku Rapuh Lemah Liar Merana
Chorus2
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang Dosakan
Cinta Kekasih
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku
Yang Dosakan Cinta Kekasih
Hatiku Maafkan Aku

Keliru

It is indeed difficult to to be in one relation. Trying hard to understand a charactor, passion, do & don'ts, likes and dislikes, anger, sadness, hatred etc. My stomach churn everytime i tried to go deep into understanding whats not in me but the other party as in a partner.



But i am trying everyday learning the best way of how do i do it without hurting his feelings nor trigger anything of his unliking.



Why do i have a crinnging pain inside. I am not angry yes i am sad. So yes i wans't angry but yes i am sad. It hurts me. Im feeling the pain, bcos i dont know what i did that he is so angry.



He is tight in his timing and schedule but its me who feeling the heat and being pressed of his tense situation n pressure.



I understand and asked was it the time WITH ME making him feeling he is out of his way, and boundaries. Was I AM the sole reason for making him into that situation. I shouldnt ask, i shouldnt question. I make time for it, for him, for me to explore the togetherness and if thats pressing him and i am the cause why did he actually agree when i said im coming.



Damn no more question.



Dear page...

I am only letting out what i feel since last nite. Was it my fault to cause time to stop when he is with me. What do i do actually. God help me. I am in love but i am managing hard to be so patience with the situation.

Am i not understanding enough. If i do, let me go... so you will be free at no cost

To love is to let go, let all the pain hurts just me.

Let it be, i dont want to be a reason for anyone failure. I have enough in life, if thats makes him happy then i will let him happy.

Dear heart,

Dont be sad as you know you can never be secured when you are in a relationship.

So please be tough as always and let him capture his success, let him be on top of the world as you will smile to see him smiling up there because you are not the source of his success nor a failure.

So dear heart, calm down at peace please. Dont be sad as sadness is never part of your dreams.
Smile, for your smile are only seen with whom who loves to share it with you...

To you mr1thefool, i am sorry for causing a trouble. I know you will be fine, successful and hope all your wishes will come thru.

Take care and may your future be in ur hand soon.

I love you....