Skincare Party

Hi All,

We will be having Skincare Party on 23rd of January.
All of you are welcome to share this exciting experience.

Call Me to book your time.

Aku Hanya Wanita Biasa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpvA3R9UwWw

I have third parfum from him last round. People said they wont be lingering long with you if he gave u parfum.

Thinking of what had happen to me previously i am thinking again, it doesnt take long for him to leave me if he find i am not suitable for him. But he is still around me. Still, to date.

It scare me to think deeper. I feel safe, secure, comfortable and so full of loved when i am with him the only thing that make me uncomfortable is his working mode has always carried him away n i am feeling being a punching bag.

It hurts, yes not once, not twice but few times already but still I am here n he is there.

"I will be there for a very long time for you..." he repeat that again.

Not once but few times when we fight??? Is it a fight??? No it is not a fight. I am not sure what it is.

Yes right now u are not famous yet, right now they arent any girls residing in ur mind, lingering in ur soul, hopping in ur eyes. But when the times comes, who i am to you.

"One day i will be very pious"...
"what stoping you now?"... i contest that question
"because i cant marry you"...

I heard that, or do i hear it wrongly. I never asked further and hoping i hear it wrongly.
There is many issue arise there. His mother, his age, his destiny, his life... i doubt he will waste his beautiful life for a mother like me. I challenge that idea, but i am not challenging god if it was written for me. I was just scared... thats what im feeling. Dont want to be carried away.

"We never shared our dreams", ive been reminded. Hence i should know and always remember, i am there for a Reason, may be on Season for a Lifetime. And with that i cant question anything which is not belonging to me. It will come n go just like the rest, who claimed the same.

I have feel the hurt, i have feel the pain and im allowing it again so is that the changes i wanted in life???

aku ini Wanita Biasa
Bisa Sakit Luka Karena Cinta
Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa
Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga
Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang
Kadang ku Rapuh
Lemah Liar Merana
Chorus1
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang
Dosakan Cinta Kekasih
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang Dosakan Cinta
Kekasih Hatiku Kekasih Hatiku
Maafkan Akuaku Wanita Biasa
Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa
Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga
Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang
Kadang ku Rapuh Lemah Liar Merana
Chorus2
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku Yang Dosakan
Cinta Kekasih
Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru
Sulut Gairah Jiwamuku
Yang Dosakan Cinta Kekasih
Hatiku Maafkan Aku

Keliru

It is indeed difficult to to be in one relation. Trying hard to understand a charactor, passion, do & don'ts, likes and dislikes, anger, sadness, hatred etc. My stomach churn everytime i tried to go deep into understanding whats not in me but the other party as in a partner.



But i am trying everyday learning the best way of how do i do it without hurting his feelings nor trigger anything of his unliking.



Why do i have a crinnging pain inside. I am not angry yes i am sad. So yes i wans't angry but yes i am sad. It hurts me. Im feeling the pain, bcos i dont know what i did that he is so angry.



He is tight in his timing and schedule but its me who feeling the heat and being pressed of his tense situation n pressure.



I understand and asked was it the time WITH ME making him feeling he is out of his way, and boundaries. Was I AM the sole reason for making him into that situation. I shouldnt ask, i shouldnt question. I make time for it, for him, for me to explore the togetherness and if thats pressing him and i am the cause why did he actually agree when i said im coming.



Damn no more question.



Dear page...

I am only letting out what i feel since last nite. Was it my fault to cause time to stop when he is with me. What do i do actually. God help me. I am in love but i am managing hard to be so patience with the situation.

Am i not understanding enough. If i do, let me go... so you will be free at no cost

To love is to let go, let all the pain hurts just me.

Let it be, i dont want to be a reason for anyone failure. I have enough in life, if thats makes him happy then i will let him happy.

Dear heart,

Dont be sad as you know you can never be secured when you are in a relationship.

So please be tough as always and let him capture his success, let him be on top of the world as you will smile to see him smiling up there because you are not the source of his success nor a failure.

So dear heart, calm down at peace please. Dont be sad as sadness is never part of your dreams.
Smile, for your smile are only seen with whom who loves to share it with you...

To you mr1thefool, i am sorry for causing a trouble. I know you will be fine, successful and hope all your wishes will come thru.

Take care and may your future be in ur hand soon.

I love you....

Jetsetter Lover

Im trying to understand the meaning. Im trying to get why is it so. Getting to know more need more time. Slowly im beginning to understand or i may be wrong… here is it

In the love of my passion to travel, read and music, now i have more exposure to go more places. I travel almost every month. Until some people ask me, where do i work, what do i do that can allow me to travel so much. Not so much for me but for some who knows my condition will be very curious on how do i manage my kids and the travel arrangement esp on the budget.

I smile... and i am making the same question to me. How did i manage in between the tightness, why do i need to go, when is the best time, where should i go, who do i go with, what do i find at certain place. All this question has got pros and cons. Especially a person like me. Huge Q&A needs to be solved. Thank god i do manage so far. I have been compressing the urge, the needs of getting away from my nest when i was still married, when my kids are still small and now it all falls in just nice for me to have some breath out of my current place.

It doesnt have to be faraway, it doesnt have to be expensive, it has to be with the right person, right company, right purpose and right budget at current situation. How???? God always answer that for me as faith is always there with him whenever i had question and needs to fulfill. He is my best problem solver to any problem i have. HE is my best friend. As long as i believe HE will be there for me yes indeed HE proved me alright.

And that confirm everytime i plan my time to get away. HE take care of my family, my finance and also my wellbeing. THANK GOD FOR I HAVE YOU.

It goes along with the kind of music i love. It has to be with strong instrument rythm and tempo to make me liking certain song. Sax, piano and violin always leave me deep emotions when its played. I can drift my mind far and away.

I dont mind any song as long as it has strong elements of the instrument along. Yeah i can enjoy Gun N Roses, Beethoven, Pop Rock, Ballad, anything.

During younger years i like novels so much, n later more to family kind of stuff but now more on information that treasured along the depth of knowledge gathered. Fond of languages but no chance to learn except some chinese along the teens years.

Jettsetting my life now to something simple and easy has made me let loose lots of heaving things that used to be think and ponder. Perhaps it is because my kids are bit independence in doing most of the things they want and i gave them choice to do of course with guidance. I know its not easy to handle kids nowadays but if i hold them to tight i am scared they will find a way to get it done in another way.

Jetsetter lover??? Am i ??? Can i get a definition here or anywhere. Pls do anyone help me. Surely i cant do it when im attached. Now i began to wonder, is that a reason why i never think to get attached seriously to anyone even there is chance which come by.

Whenever someone is serious i become panic, whenever someone is ready I realize I have not. Would my partner let me explore the things i wanted to, would he let me go just anywhere i wanted to go, would he trust me that i am capable of doing it at my own pace the way i wanted it to be.

My dad thought me the sense of independency since i was small. Left alone without knowing nuts about certain things n i have to find out my own how to manage and solve it. At first i feel very bad, hurt and sad about it. I become temperamental, sulky and rebellious but then years after years of gathering the hard times, i began to earn the sweetness of being independent, being patience to find ways, being warm to ask, being friendly to be able to get help. And all those pays in giving me confidence in life to embark the difficulties

Nothing seems to be impossible if i give myself time to sit down and open my mind wider to Q&A, pro and cons to everything that needs to do. Sunshine would appear with a broad smile.

Well life is sweet. The more i find out about all this, the more i love myself and for those who would love to share life with me would you be able to have this passion along with me or let me venture it once awhile on my own. Would you not be jealous for the love i have for nature in a great way of exploring it??

I wish in 3 years time i would be able to find someone i could walk with to the beach n enjoy the sounds of current composing the melodious rhythm life drama, feel the breeze slapping my face as i scroll along the white sands, feel the earth opening the horizon to a great sunrise or sunset hand in hand reading what kind of music my heart playing while i envelope myself with the love of nature gives me.

Letting the nature to love me would give me great sense of joy to embark new life again and again.

My hiatus moment

After holiday trip i rush myself to pack my bag again for my laproscopy and dd&c procedure in melaka. 3 nites i was alone by myself. Did a lot of thinking detaching myself n out side world. I learn about my surrounding n frens around me. Who are genuine, who are sincere, who claimed to be but not up to, who thinks they know but failed to be as expected. Am i expecting? I have long ago drop my passion to understand, to let go a feeling to love a man. But it came back recently. But it didnt come wholely like expected to be. Unsure of his feelings towards me sometime makes me reserve some for myself. He cant have the full trust and i cnt force him. I want it to come naturally within him. And when he ask me to go away for a while it makes me ask if you really need someone do you need to break loose or you nèed as longest string to let it go and when the elasticity goes the string will pull it back to you. I dnt have the answer, all i knw if it was meant for me it will be back safely unconditionally. And so with that i let it loose and unsure should i grow ìt, cherish, nourish, nuture it or let it perish. I let it be there lingering in my thoughts, mind and soul. Because it helps to keep me going. I have loving enough, i just want to be loved. If you cnt give it i wont force you. Yes i am very low now. Nothing seems to boost anything in me. You were around and used to contribute to my happiness but now i no longer do.
Let it be as i am a survivor, who will survive either with tears or laughter. I am going to take the challenge and invent the adventure of my life path. I forgive all... And i am praying everyone will succeed in their endeavour.

Authentication of you

Everyone has its on trait. Weakness n strength

A night in Semanggi

This time Jakarta was explored in different areas. Golden Boutique Melawai are where we stayed. Nice building structure as i could say of an old leftover colonial building and placed in a wrong area in Blok M surrounding. The place is packed an full of people. But it has added to my valuable experience. I took my fren to the very popular mid income to low income shoppers heaven in Mangga Dua and also Tanah Abang. This time nothing much was shopped as i was in tight budget.
I have have other personal experience in accomplishing a mission that was asked by a friend. An another experience is to traveo to Jakarta alone in a different airbus was totally new experience itself.
Thirdly i was seated to a young man who at first minding own bussines but at last writing his number at at my food buka puasa pack. Its just adding my travel experience of knowing people while we are in d air above the grounds. It just took a courage of a person to open a mouth to make friends.
I was taking a few rides to a different new places time but had not managed all. We spent lots of time in Taman Anggerik the big and high class shopping complex almost a day touring.
Nou much on shopping but inventing, exploring and experiencing. Perhaps the next round i will manouvere the experience of the night life as claimed by the new friend as heaven of food and entertainment. My curiousity build up in knowing what was it all about.
The whole new experience end up on the fourth day when this time i experienced the tensed of having mornin massive jam. I was almost give up, sulky and stressed but alhamdullillah god answer my silent prayer. I manage to board my plane but with lots of errors here and there. All in all it was a success and whole new experienced gathered. :-D:-*6th Sept 09