Stomping out in Reality... Tho its Bite but its Real

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Stomping out in Reality... Tho its Bite but its Real

Cuttings from my messenger this morning

Man_U : straight to d pint ya..
farm: ok dokie
Man_U : since u mentioned about ballz jst now..
Man_U :
farm: aha
Man_U : what if there a girl keep on seducing me sampaikan he wants me to make love with her
farm: so
farm: wats the questions
farm: where is ur iman
farm: wat do u look in her
farm: wd u fall for one night stand
farm: or may be she wants to tag u whole life
farm: ask urself wat do u really want
farm: fall for lust or fall for the passion n compassion
farm: bingo n fulstop
Man_U : tu la mi..
farm: wats ur verdict
Man_U : i x know..confius..
farm: hey
farm: lets get this straight do u want to fuck her?
farm: bcs shes offering?
farm: or do u want to make love to her bcos u like her or love her
farm: the answer is there
Man_U : x get me wrong semua guys i rasa mcm tu mi..
Man_U : tp i tak buat apa2 pon lg..
farm: hey im asking u straight q
farm: answer me
farm: u do or not
farm: its up to u
farm: answer my q
Man_U : i do but at d same time i dont
farm: one more time wd u want to fuck n forget
farm: or
farm: wd u want to make love n make the relationship go on
farm: choose one
Man_U : whats a different??
farm: hahahah so u dont know ur self yet
farm: n u dont know wat do u want
farm: fucking n making love has so much diff

Petikan from a friends blog:

I was reading a fren's blog dated 9 jan and somehow got the nagging feeling that it was referring to me. Am i perasan or not? :P It was about telling someone what you disliked about them. Im known to be very honest in my sometimes hurtful comments, especially if im close to the commentee. Though some might call it callous, insensitive and untactful but i'd prefer to be honest than be a hypocrite. Wouldnt you?

Farm comments:brutal honesty usually shed you frm being in their friend list. but i prefer black truth than white lies for at the end of the day the return for apologizing session that what they like most!!!

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My note to my dearest friend who shed me from her friendlist…Kudos to her!!!

hi thanks for your silent dissapearance and i hope my last mail to you doesn’t offend you much in ur thoughts and reality. sorry to hold the names in due case, they are still in fren list tho not theirs. Perhaps thats the best thing you could do to suit you. good luck in your search and i still owe u the explanation should u still want to sit over tea one of those days when you gets here. when i promised i will grant it unless they dont want it. its your call. have a nice day and do take care. sometime ppl we carry along with us without we see do hurt but its better to say it here then keeping it. u have make a choice of yours in your silence. i read you clearly thanks for the ears and shoulder offered all this while. sayonara my fren

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Cuttings from Sans Boundaries Blogspot

Practice safer sex. You shouldn't have sex with someone with a sexually transmitted disease. But no matter what, you should always use latex (or polyurethane) condoms to lessen your chance of getting sexually transmitted diseases.- And make sure you use water-based lubricants. Don't use Vaseline!!

-Keep your stress level down. -Have sex regularly to keep it down.

Another nice piece and amusing…

you are ATTRACTIVE and should have no issues finding a squeeze.

you can throw:

i) great personality
ii) a big heart
iii) intelligence...

out the window.

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RED EYE VIEW RAMBLINGS…

I had my own fair share of stares and constants whispering before. I was in a relationship with an older woman. She was 10 years older than me. She was a divorcee with 4 young daughters. The eldest was 10 years younger than me, twins who were entering their teenage years and the youngest was 10 years old when I met her. We were a couple for a good 3 years before it all ended.

In any relationship, there will always be obstacles and challenges that you might have to face but being in a relationship that society deemed to be wrong not just in Malaysia but everywhere else in the world was something else. At first it was hard as going for movies or having a dinner outside were a challenge for us as we have to ignore staring eyes watching our every move and being judge d on the way we acted. Try as you might to be comfortable but when you just feel every single pair of eyes were fixed on you, it was a struggle. You thought after awhile it would stop but it never did and t became impossible to ignore. It became stressful and we usually opt for takeaways and vcds or dvds.

Farm comments: When the tough gets going and going gets tough!!. It takes one strong man to face the reality and desire to fulfil. It depends how he tackle life is. Obstacle and challenges will always be there but then lets the conscience takes place nor desire or lust.

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Now as I go around the bloggers space I find its more amusing to read from those out from myspace where they write and keep the picture amusingly and desiringly to read more and more of their ramblings.. I was thinking whether was it worth to write according to what people want or what I love to. Raunchy or not, pleasing or not it is not actually for you. It is merely for me. The intensity of wanting to write more to let of my steam off myself. The craving needs and wanting more to write taking it out of mind and read it repeatedly when I have time.

Few bfs called me last nite which ended with stupid question like

“So you going to sleep now?”

“Ya laa then what go and ride bicyle?”

“Why are you so outspoken nowadays compare to the same farmie I know last year?”

“Should I spell what you need everytime or should I please what I feel and want?

“But anyhow farmie, I still want to see you no matter how many pounds you put on and how big are you, to me you are the still the same farmie I wanted to be with?”

“ERK… should I spare you that time hahahahhaah”

“So dear I don’t know how, no matter how hard and how bitter are you to me I still come back to you”

“The harsh word means you are not suppose to be back in my pm box nor in my small buddy along with the voice”

“I don’t care sometimes how hurt I am with your words or way you treat me, I still know you would still be there to listen should I need ur ear n ur shoulder”

“Was I there? When did you meet me? In heaven or hell hahahhaah?”

He feel so offended and agitated but then he still come back and call at the time he please. Sometime I just ignore, sometime I just layan just to get the spice going for me or him. Like I read today in myspace “THINKING about relations can be tiring. How about BUILDING relations? Never mind the bumps along the way, the result could be well worth it. As the confused Confucius said: It's not the destination; it's the journey”

The bumps make me wiser and the hump makes me hmmmmm hahahahah, shit I shouldn’t be thinking those. I just want to share some of my thoughts if you may hear and if you still love to be there as friends. Talk what you want to talk, say what you love to but at the end of the day think whether is it going to benefit to you.

Thank you for visiting and hope no offence felt here nor slight feelings of hate. But I welcome that smirking face with full of disgust look anyway…

“ People love and hates honesty at the same time. Why because they cant find where they belongs too. Love and destiny cant get along while love acquires lots of pain but destiny acquires lots of passion. In life we cant have all at once. Its either one. I learn to accept what comes and dont ask much but always be thankful for what im given and granted. HE knows best for me, you and each and everyone....”

This is my new blogspot header should you want to find me if im not around here… Blogging and Messenger has became an escapism but to me is a place to learn about human attitude and behaviour. People don’t talk should it not happen in life or reality……..

Have a nice day folks
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